i dun understand why im still living in this world. im so tired,real tired. and i dont know why. i suddenly feel so left out by the world. im out, totally out. when there's no care, no love and no feelings. everyone around me seems to be involving in something, but i dont find me doing the same. oh ya, im always left out. be it love or friendship, i have got none.when there's sumthing on, i'll always be the last to know. whateva it is, cos no one ever notice my existence.cant blame others, cos i dont deserve any. i suddenly feel like crying. as i said, i dont know why. i dont even know what the fucking hell im typing now. i just know i wanna cry out loud. but i dont even haf the guts to do so. i only wanna be alone, somewhr whr no one can find me. i dont wanna let anyone see me cry. its so embarrasing. a big ger crying like hell. idiot,fucking idiot. eeeeek. i so fucking hate myself. again, i must raise that i DONT hate anyone,but just myself. ok, i haf to wipe away my tears =)) anywae, who cares? i'll just put on a smile later on and no one will know. =))

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